Sun Bleached Cleaning and EFT

Yesterday there was an email from Margaret Lynch oddly enough of the subject of anger. The key point being that behind the anger is the feeling of "it's not fair and I deserve better"

Boy did that nail this thing with Victim Wilds and her complaint. So I tapped it out and I think I will save that transcript for ever. I will use it again today fo'sho'.

After tapping I refused to drive around on errands in the am and only did the ones I could walk to: Library for example ...a good three miles one way. Then I bused it back and walked in from Altadena Drive and Lincoln...another 1.5 getting sun scorched all the way. One the curve at the bridge at the bottom of the Meadows a fireman in a small truck from Station 12 stopped to ask me if I knew it was 99 degrees and I shot back"Is that all?" It was a pleasant interruption in the aloneness. Felt good, rested and went back at it focusing on service and income producing activities,

I think Chris Farrell deserves revisiting. I have been feeling pretty low since the complaint was filed and there is not a bit of sense in saying otherwise. But between Mr.Trivedi Monday and Margaret yesterday and today I came up  for air and stayed there. Still floating. Still believing.

Ex Mea Manua In Tua Manua Dea Eterna.

Mr. Trivedi: Trust vs.Doubt

Has anticipated a good one on the monthly energy transmission with my favorite Indian Guruji. I was not disappointed but I also got a sense that he is floundering a little in all the crap that is getting thrown at him by the American fools who are trying to make him into Christ as a miracle worker and are crucifying him when he refuses to show up as that and the worse fools who think that he is promoting himself as the Messiah.

How does it get any better then this is a good question for him I am thinking.

He was focusing on trust and doubt and making it clear that it isn't about trust and doubt of him, but of the Divine. He shared part of his story that I had never heard before and some more walls "come a tumbling down." Another key behind the curtain if you will.

It ain't easy being green...or slimed with your own sins and being grateful for the opportunity to have them thrown in your own face.

But today I got a chance to choose and I chose this. I used a little more Dr.Dain to still the chatter.I will keep that up. Because the truth is I am as capable of all that I judge evil as the next soul, and that is what is happening here. Awareness of flaw and acceptance of it. Gratitude for the learning is a lot easier today then it was last week.

Also sitting in resistance and judgment is as good a way as I have found to silence the voice of the Divine. More like drown Her out really.

SO...
How does it get any better then this?
What else is possible
What do I need to do to change this?
Who DOES this belong to?

Ex Mea Manua In Tua Manua, Dea Eterna

How Does It Get Any Better Then This

For whatever reason I seem to be asking Access Questions all day. Yesterday I reviewed my notes and asked those in the morning. I was in the Now all day and through my open enrollment. I made sales. I got my rent check from the soon to be non room mate and a gift from my sister.

I came into the house and email inbox  to a not unexpected attack by a non client who has decided to sue me and everyone else remotely connected to her state of being as a non cancer Victim. She had skin cancer non life threatening and she has decided she is a victim. It almost ruined my Lammas celebration. I held that any way and kept asking questions, especially How does it get any better then this and What can I do to change this.

So this am I am blogging first. I will defend myself later. I know my RSC is too stoned to remember, so he will not be of much help. I will not choose to trust him. But some advice he gave was good.

I am also eating out this am. I feel like seeing some people who are busy living not busy hating.

How does it get any better then this? What do I need to do to change this?
What else IS possible?

Ex Mea Manua In Tua Manua,Dea Eterna

Today I woke up without crying....

Today was the first time in a long time I woke up without crying. Today was a day after a lot of rest and a lot of Dr. Dain. Today I woke up thinking I can change. I can do things. I am not losing my home. Today when I caught myself in a "Mind battle " in thinking I stopped and asked"who does this belong to?"

Today the sun outside is cutting crystal edges of sharpness in everything I see.
Today I get another chance. Today I get another adventure. Today today today.

The past is done.
The future does not exist.
                                        There really is only today.

                                                           Gratia Dea
                                 Ex Mea Manua In Tua Manua,Dea Eterna

LA Downtown, and Dr. Dain

Funny thing happened to me on the way back from downtown. I noticed a lot of heaviness mentally. Sure I had some real reasons but it felt like mental glue.

As I drove up out of the smog bowl the air and the view view got better and it felt like it was a little less gooey in the old mental field. When I got home and no one was there it was like being in the Alps on a spring day.

Started using "who does this belong to' when I was picking up on some really ugly thoughts in the ghetto parts outside the sky scraped zone. I mean ugly shit...rapper crapper hate shit.

Thank you Dea Eterna for Dr. Dain. I wasn't having a bad day in a bad smog zone...I was fielding other peoples stuff but this time I was batting it away gently and sweeping it out the door. Also realizing what was mine making me glue bait for goo a bit more. This last year of the Mayans I don;t think anyone is coming out unchanged and I have been fighting some of it.

The room mate came home and tried to glom in on my space when I was working: made herself a nuisance really by ignoring the fact that I told her I was in webinar. She can't think for herself poor kid, she is that scared I guess.
I also guess that that was the end of the decision making process on asking her to leave. She leaves a trail of grey gooey fear and I need that like I need the smog in LA even if I can feel sorry for her.

So..
What else is possible?
What do I need to do to change this?
How else can the money show up?
How can it get any better then this?

Ex Mea Manua In Tua Manua Dea Eterna

Trivedi, Tapping and Dain: Having a Wild Weekend

This weekend was for pulling weeds ...the kind in my head as well as in the yard. It was really wild.

I started off listening to a webcast replay of Jeneth talking to Mr. Trivedi. And although I have heard his script before it was very soothing to hear the sound of his voice. Very.

Then I went to a replay of Margaret Lynch. I heard the original and it didn't hit as hard as this time. She told us to write our money goals and then on a scale of one to ten rate ideas about them, such as "It's Impossible" "It will probably be really hard." "I can do this" and " I deserve it"

What ticked my truth-o-meter was that I ranked "I can do" this really low , the first two really high and "I deserve this" higher then " I can do this."  And the walls come a tumblin' down.

Victim of two thousand years or more I truly felt that my suffering entitles me to huge abundance. Well I wailed on that one. Tapped on it. Seventeen ways from Sunday. I was coughing a choking and crying until my insides were in a knot.

How's that for a hot item?

Gets better. The Universe HATES me because it never gives me what I DESERVE. God and Goddess alike are judged on the standard of MONEY.

Woo boy.

Half an hour and a whole handful of tissues later I felt so much better and went out and weed whacked in the yard.

That was Friday and Saturday Morning. On Saturday afternoon and then again Sunday, I went into Dain Heer mode. Finally got that 90 percent of the crap in my head wasn't me. Friggin' telepathy and owning other peoples junk. Especially about money but mostly about me and what a rotten person I am.
Also got the taste of Anastasia's energy and nailed it for what it is...the Stopper nmechanism of a truly frightened individual.

This morning I was in the yard and Lisa and Rob came into my head. I stayed in it for a few minutes then said" Who does this belong to" instead of battling and justifying myself to my imaginary Them.

It sure wasn't mine and that was that.

Came in and tapped some more and Pod and Poc'd some more  and that was it.
So....

Who am I today and what grand and glorious adventures will I have?
What else is possible?
AND MOST OF ALL

How does it get any better then this?

Ex Mea Manua In Tua Manua,. Dea Eterna

Dr.Dain say "It isn't YOURS!"

Whipped out an Access Consciousness tool this am, and last night as well. Dr.Dain Heer says in regards to energy "Light is Truth. Lies are heavy, so the questions to ask are in the order of "Who does this belong to?" If you feel lighter the energy is NOT YOURS!! You glommed it up by agreement. But it ain't  yours sucka!

There has been a lightening of the burden of money although it would not seem it from my bank account. There has also been a perception of a solid massive wall in front of me that does not move or change energy wise, so I whipped out the magic questions.

Guess who felt lighter? It ain't mine. It's there. It is the reality and energy of the times. But it ain't mine.

Did that question last night and again this morning. Gonna keep at it which is what the good Dr. recommends.

How does it get any better then this? What else is possible? Where else can the money come from? What about this can be changed that I am not getting yet?
Pod and Poc Pod and Poc Pod and Poc. A dozen Pod and Poc a day keep the blues far away. Definitely better then apples.

Ex Mea Manua In Tua Manua.