Access and Tapping and TEARS!!! OH MY!

I had a feeling when I woke up today that I was going to have a rough one and I was more right then I knew. Griefy, blocked, feeling trapped. NO job no hope no joy.

Got on it with EFT and that helped but didn't budge the feeling of no possibility no change no friggin way this is happening...again! What am I doing wrong?Why is my life still totally shit?

Went into Jeneth's Dain-aThon and hit day three. Well more like it hit me with a ton of bricks and like Joshua at the battle of Jericho, the walls come a tumblin' down.

The question the good Dr. asked had to do with being made wrong for your hopes and dreams and what you asked for.

Well, well, well, well, well. How's that for the story of  myparticluar brand of hell life? Made wrong and laid in hard over physical pain.

And where did all the make wrong come from in the most part...oh yeah,..those guys...the Scientology creeps.

Years of it. Decades actually. And the walls come a tumblin' down.
The block I had on Chris Farrell's website...gone.
The block I had on receiving from Her...gone. Spent time lying in the circle for the first time in months..wanting to be there. Calling hummingbirds to me...watching Scree soar.
Peace.
I was never wrong to want what I wanted. Never. It was the right choice for me, just not for a group full of people with a ridgid moral code about self denial.

Well well well well. Another key from behind the curtain. They are coming faster and bigger these days. I must be on the right track.

Gratia Dea.
Ex Mea Manua, In Tua Manua