Self Equals Bad?

Been having a good old time of it, revisiting the area of relationships. Got a wiggle on my line from an old crush. He is part of Scientology and since I am a knowing and avowed Enemy of the Sea Org, as a group that is suppressive to Women, this was an exercise in"WOW!!!!! A REALLY GREAT GUY JUST CALLED TO ASK ME OUT... WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING TO ACCEPT?

So I blew him off by canceling the date. I got lucky and got his voice mail. YES! Saved by the Machine!!I got to take the cowards way out.

I need to revisit this area of Sea Org bullying people about their friends like I need to be bit by 75 Egyptian Asps. And that goes triple for Jamie.

What a sweet guy. There was a bit of sadness for a while, to not be able to have a friend like him without putting him at risk of being shot by his wonderful"friends" on L.Ron Hubbard Way. Really was cut up about it.

Then I went online to this mature persons dating service this morning and got an eyeful of cool and interesting looking men. Yummmmm.

OK.  'Nuff of that stuff.

Got back into Hubbard, though, and started reviewing some of his basics to help Christine. Was working on the "Urge to Survive of Self" and decided to look up self in the dictionary for fun.
OE to AS derivation; definitions 1,2 and 4 very clean. Then there is the 3rd about over concern and focus on one's own interests...selfishness.

Christ...self concern = bad? Define OVER CONCERN? Somebody please can we draw the line here?

You aren't worth a hoot. to anyone else if you aren't worth a hoot to yourself.
So where is the line? I can see someone being a non stop-ego manifestation being a bit of a turn off, but I learned a long time ago that is compensation for deep rooted self doubt and inferiority. The guy that knows does not have to brag. The truly enlightened master will never claim to be. Being in one's Self Ness is NOT Selfish.

So pardon me, I am off to be concerned about myself ALL DARN DAY!

It will be a good one.

Ex Mea Manua In Tua Manua Dea Eterna.