The Day that Aflac Paid was Wrong

For the last 7 years I have had something happen so regularly that it is like the sun rising and then setting.

That is the day that I get my monthly check from Aflac.

It is always on the first Friday after the month closes. The month closes out on a Friday and then the next week we get paid.

I got paid on Thursday. I got paid today and that is impossible.I burst into tears. I couldn't stop crying. I went hysterical.

Why?

Simply this: I had been asking the Dr.Dain question "How else can the money show up? There is simply no way that Aflac ever pays other then Friday 1st after close.

I asked and Aflac paid on Thursday. And I lost it.

Because there it was, the Universe answering and doing it in a completely impossible way.

Totally impossible. Aflac never pays on Thursday. It's impossible.

All I could do was cry and ask why? Why all the suffering? Why all the hell to pay? You are the Unlimited Divine. What have I done that I am always being hurt and miserable and poor? Why do you hate me?YOU COULD HAVE DONE DIFFERENTLY AND YOU LET ME GO ON THROUGH ALL THIS HELL???!!!!

Eventually I cried myself out. There was no answer there was just quiet and now. All the garbage of the years past stopped impacting.

Then the thought, I am unforgiven as I never forgive and the one I forgive never is me.

The world does not have to hate me and punish me. That I do very well on my own thank you very much.

And where is the reason to go on doing that now?

I don't know.

Something has gone.

I have no interest in looking for it. It is gone and now is now.

The landlord is not increasing his rent.I know where I stand at last.

I can live here.

I can sublet and charge what I want.

I have my new position.

I have money and can begin again.

l don't need to go back to the Shadow on the Porch of the Unforgiven.

The moon is up and it is beautiful. Tomorrow it will be full and the next day is my birthday.

How does it get any better then this? What else is possible?

How else can the money show up?

Ex mea Manua In Tua Manua Dea Eterna.