Friday the 13th

Again the early am call. Again the early am blues. Another key...the last vestiges of a lifetime on the receiving end of conspiracy. Oh how dramatic that sounds. It really isn't.

Smelling the same energy from Christine's crew , the "get rid of this one" snubbing cold energy when people have turned against you for their fear and ego safety.

It is still upsetting but less so. One would like a little camaraderie in life.

But then I became the conspirators in 1985, though they were not the first or last. The first came in 1969 then 1970 and they were the worst. Created quite the heart crack. Then came the ones in1975 1985,1988 then the ones in 1995, then it happened to the company I worked for in 2005 which was no apparent fault of mine. Then again two years later then again in 2010

Great. They are moving in faster now that I am older.

I have been carrying it with me. The energy that it was and that triggers it anew. I became them. The betrayal artists that conspire with others.

That sent a few shock waves through the system.Really didn't want to spend my life like this but well...

Fact is betrayal is my middle name this life. Me to others, others to me , others to others in my presence. Best of all me to myself.Fun Stuff.

Conspiracy...that must be from the past farther then I know at this time.

Soon.

This is the Trivedi effect in all it's glory. I have faith in that. This is the crap that must be confronted and so it is. At 3:00 in the morning. Better that then never seen at all.

I am going back to bed.

Ex Mea Manua In Tua Manua.